I fell asleep thinking about something I have thought about, randomly, for years now. I realize I'm a bit unique...but does that really mean I have to be so, detachable. I'm not detached, thats nt what I mean, but I can look back on my past and see that all my best friends, weren't and won't always be my best friends. I hope some of them will though.. My parents, mostly my mom, have told me that you don't REALLY find your true friends until later in life, at this point my mom is 46 and I really hope she is wrong. Not because I dont want to find friends, but because I hope to find them sooner rather than later.
As for relationships...I'd really enjoy finding that one person who matches me like the symetrical side of an ink blot, lol so to say. But I can't seem to find a guy that just...goes with the flow, that takes me for me and doesn't criticize. My third boyfriend was the closest to that, but timing and personality won out and stuff changed. I am sick of change in this area of my life. Can't it just be simple for once?
My mother and father married at 20 and 22. My older sister moved into her newly built home with her boyfriend of nearly a decade, allittle over 6 months ago. They met when she was seventeen. Now tell me why I couldn't have gotten that lucky. Maybe, just maybe, it's because I'm stuck in a small/annoying/god forsaken town where all the people, well most are scumbags I dont like and the rest are annoying and dramatic. Usually I dont like them either. I can put up with them, but I only like a handful of people here. The man I'm meant to be with...so far...isnt in this town.
If you stay tuned...I will. Go with the flow. Right?
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