Ok. So today while cleaning my room and getting dresed in what I consider weekend clothes..I saw my cell screen light up, which automatically means I have a message coming through. After a few seconds I realize it's a picture message (they always take longer) so I wait a few more seconds for it to come through. I think to myself in this small amount of time, " Hahaha It'd be funny if it were from Jason..." Well big surprise...it is from Jason. Our relationship has now been over and done with for nearly 4 months, due to the fact that he can't focus on just one girl. Oh and he says I got clingy and overly emotional. Well wouldn't you if you knew the person you loved was doing stuff behind your back and then lying about it, that whole, "if you hang on too tight it'll slip through your fingers thing" rings very true here. Anyways, it's a picture of him saying that hes finally got his hair cut. I must say he does look good. I miss him. No, I don't.
At the end of our relationship he started to flirt with and engaged girl that was all too happy to flirt back. Well a few weeks ago he calls me to say her fiance' had found out and called him, and that he was threatened, lol. Not funny, I know, but it is because he called me looking for sympathy when this is the girl he dumped me for...he dumped me to have fun flirting. So to get back at the girl, he sends the naked picture of her..to her fiance'...(she sent the picture to jason to "flirt".) Now even til this day I can't fathom doing this if I were enganged. And to top it all off, her fiance' is a marine. Now she's not the first girl he's flirted with, there was a whole string of them that I saw, winessed, and tried to ignore..out of love. HA!
I dealt with about 9 months of his flirting and the rumors spread around campus about his sexual activities with someone, some people, rather than myself, wich he denies. In total there were about....hmm, lets think, about 5 girls. Now, having contacted my new roomate, I can't help think that she would've ended up on that god forsaken list of women he manages to bewitch. I can honestly say that the majority of my time with him was very pleasant, but that the bad times seem to leave the biggest impact. So I guess what i'm trying to say is that he threw me for a loop today, and all the other times he contacts me..and I have to remind myself to be a bitch...even though I'll always try to be his friend...After all his life, right now, sucks WAY more than mine does. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him and he said he wanted the same. HA! But a person like me, (too nice) will hold out for a friendship forever. Although, now I've learned to stand up for myself and be a teeny bit more bitchy. It pays off. So for now, I'm good being alone, even though I can feel myself reaching the point where I just want to have a man care..even a little. But the point here..is that I don't NEED one.
This years a new start. Jason, so deservingly got himself forced into going to a community college in Long Island where he's living with his mom. Dug himself that hole. :) Though I do hope it's starts looking up for him. Honestly I do. if he had not flirted and slacked..he'd be with me, happy, and in school where he wants to be. But Karma is a bitch right?
Stay tuned...
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